Don't get me wrong, both events were really fun; however, I realized something when I was hanging out with my high school friends: I couldn't relate to most of them anymore. I mean, I wasn't close to a good amount of them to begin with, but even some of my friends who I had hung out with for most of my high school years I couldn't really talk to them or have fun with them like I used to. I don't know if the time apart has caused us to drift apart (most likely the case) or my personality and interests have morphed to the point where I can't really connect with these people anymore. Honestly, I felt kind of awkward and tense most of the time, and any/all jokes I tried to make seemed kind of forced. When I went out today, I really hoped that this wouldn't be the case... but I just don't feel like I belong in this group anymore. Again, don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm going to discard all these people from my life and hope I never see them again; no, no, no I just feel that a good chunk of these people have devolved into acquaintances rather than friends. (incase you were wondering, the rest of that chunk are still my friends are people I can connect with)
It's just that I find it weird that eating and hanging out with Kim, a girl I've only known for about half a year, was more enjoyable to me than watching a movie and partying with people I've known for about 2+ years.
I guess I've just lost like 80% of my friends in Chicago.