A lot of things have been happening in my life. Most of which is changing how I view the world. One main thing that I've learned to do is to "take it with a smile". What I mean by that is to take the bad things in a positive way.
Before, I was always getting bent out of shape when things didn't go my way. I'm a kind of person that can't really let go of things. I wouldn't be able to change that, I wish to the Gods I could but I can't. But I figure if I can't stop thinking about it, might as well change how I think about it, if that makes sense.
About two weeks ago, I tried out for a campus dance group. Got shot down. Honestly, not to toot my own horn or anything, but I'm kind of proud (and surprised) about how I handled the rejection.
For the dance group, I thought that I'd be all "Why wouldn't they accept me?! I'm better than most of the people there!!!!!" but, I wasn't. In fact, I didn't give two shits that I got rejected. The tryouts were so much fun, I learned two amazing pieces of choreography,and it was a great experience that I would gladly do again (which I will during their Spring tryouts). All I could think about was getting better at dancing, learning new pieces of choreography when I'm at home, and thinking about ways I could improve my own choreography (which I desperately need to do). That day, you literally could not wipe the smile off my face. I was so happy.
It's just, at this point in my life, a lot of shit has happened to me, and there's at least a ton more flying towards me. I've always known this, but it hasn't really been until now that I've actually... accepted it. Shit will happen, people don't get what they want, nothing ever goes as planned, life is not fair. Accept it, let it happen, adapt, and take it with a smile. :]
Hahaha.... side note.. my roomie is falling asleep to Teenage Dream by Katy Perry. Cute.
LOL he also just threatened to kick a girl "in [her] nuts". gahahahhahaha.
He'll probably read that and punch me. Completely worth it.
Another thing I wanted to talk about (more like, vent, I guess? Ironic how this is coming after my "take it with a smile" spiel) something that I've recently noticed that's been happening to me all my life. People who know me know that it's in my nature to help people (again, not trying to toot my horn). A part of why I want to become a doctor is so that I can help people and do what comes natural to me. It's just the right thing to do, you know? But recently, I've kind of felt like the more I help my friends, the less they appreciate me... Like... they think it's expected of me or something. It was actually one recent event that actually made me realize that this was happening. I went completely out of my way to do a good deed for someone I knew and didn't even get a thank you. Of course, a good deed is reward in itself and all that jazz, and I honestly wasn't looking for a thank you, but it just made me realize that this has been happening a lot. Like, being in this situation, to me, just makes me feel like everyone's bitch. Like, only two people I can think of actually say "thank you" to me: my roomie Henry, and my good friend Kim...
I don't know, I might just be making mountains out of molehills, but that's just how I'm feeling now; like a bitch.